Today nobody is coming and nobody is going. Therefore, you have enough time to begin with the practice of meditation—which you wait for, after somebody’s welcome is over or after somebody’s departure is over. Wherever there is no coming and no going, that is also some space.
So what is useful? The Source. Why? The Source is that which does not have to prove to you that you need a candle to see your undying nature. Everybody knows that “I will not die.” You do not need the sun for that, you do not need the stars for that, you do not need the body, skin and blood and eyes, for that, you do not need a person for that. You just need the one who is undying. And undying means unborn. So that which is the Source is free from taking birth. Why, then, will there be any fear of death, when the Source has not even taken birth?
Swami ji: You are right when you ask a question. A child does not have the chance to ask a question, but when he becomes big, he wants to know. So the knowing sense arises. In a child, at first the knowing sense is not found. It is hidden. But because it must be hidden in him, it arises, just like a sprout that is hidden in a seed. When you hear such examples, then you come to know what is hidden and what is obvious.
We know ourselves daily as relative persons, relative to each other. So Alka was the one who was giving a departure for Keerti Narayan, and when she said antavahak, then I came to know that you do not know antavahak. We have never studied it. We have studied the external; or you have closed the eyes and you imagined the internal. But antavahak, you do not know. Though you know “innermost,” for you, “innermost” is your mind or intellect. So the words are there; but the innermost is that by which you came into form as a human being. A process must be there, there must be some source. It starts somewhere. The moment it started, that is antavahak.
All human beings who have become big have been seeking that. Why? They know they
must have lost it somewhere. Otherwise, how is it possible that they can become unhappy,
worried, agitated, and tense, with the fear of sickness, disease, and the constant, lingering fear of death?